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Reflections on Pain

"Much of your pain is the bitter potion by which the physician within you heals your sick self." ~ Kahlil Gibran 





Pain. Sometimes it comes slow and insidious like a serpent, threatening to overtake us at any minute. Other times it is sudden, like a bolt of lightning, fierce and powerful. It can consume us if we let it. It can consume us even if we don't let it. It can be a friend, letting us know when our bodies are going haywire. It can be a friend in that when it is not present, we appreciate those moments and days as much as possible. More often however, it is our enemy. It is the force that can take away our independence, our joy, and our resolve.





I do try not to let it get the better of me. Try to be brave and not complain. I know that I don't always succeed in that. It must be hard for my loved ones to see me suffer. It must be hard for them to listen to the same complaints over and over again. It is easy to fall into the trap of "why me?" It is like e…

Mindful Journey

"The most precious gift we can offer others is our presence. When mindfulness embraces those we love, they will bloom like flowers."  ~ Thich Nhat Hahn





Journeys...
Trips...
Vacations...
Different words for the same event which are basically opportunities to get away from it all. You figure out where to go, pack your bags, find a dog sitter (well I do anyways) and off you go. You have a specific amount of time ahead of you to explore, relax, or if you are really lucky, a combination of both.




I went on a journey recently. I am calling it a journey rather than a trip or vacation, because I learned something from the six days I got to leave my home. Our journey consisted of spending a few days in Portland, Maine and then exploring back roads through New Hampshire and Vermont on our way to upstate New York to visit Chuck's two sisters. We didn't initially plan it this way but we knew we wanted to be in both Maine and New York during his one week off from work and due to hea…

Important Blog Update

Hello everyone!



At the end of July, I posted a blog entry called Read Me informing my readers that I was going to use Amazon Affiliates as an advertiser for my blog, which would hopefully start generating some revenue for me. I wanted to let folks know that I have recently cancelled my agreement with them and removed Amazon ads from my blog. There were some serious issues in regards to their customer service and process for payment that I was unable to resolve with them. I would like to take this opportunity to thank everyone who supported me in that VERY trying endeavor.



However, I decided to give the advertising thing one more try and joined Google AdSense over a week ago and so far it has been a very positive experience. I don't want to go into too much detail as to how it works as there are contractual issues in regards to blog authors promoting AdSense and I really don't want to violate those terms and get booted! The fact that they do have terms of proper conduct is a very…

Traveling with Sjogren's

"Strong and content I travel the open road." ~ Walt Whitman



I am home, unpacked and freshly showered after a six day vacation. I have plenty of stories and photographs to share. I haven't written since before I left six days ago either for my blog or for one of my various other projects. My plan was to wait until I was more rested but I miss the writing. I caught up over the past two days with Facebook and the blogs I regularly follow. There was a post on the Sjogren's Syndrome Foundation Facebook page by a woman asking for tips on how to travel with Sjogren's Syndrome. I am by no means an expert, but over the past year and especially this past week, I have discovered a few helpful hints to make traveling just a bit easier for those of us who struggle with this crazy autoimmune disorder.




Anyone who follows my blog regularly or knows me personally is well aware that I have become an advocate of flying by the seat of my pants when it comes to traveling and life in …

Reflections on Dad

"My father gave me the greatest gift anyone could give another person, he believed in me. " ~ Jim Valvano




Did you ever have a person say something trivial to you and it triggers a whole thought process? This morning my boyfriend, Chuck, sent me an e-mail saying that an animal of some sorts got into our trash last night and made quite the mess. He then suggested we put some bleach in the large trash container to help with the smell and discourage the critters who roam around on our wooded property. My first immediate reaction, which I of course told him in my reply, was that we should use ammonia instead. My dad always poured ammonia on the garbage on trash day when we were growing up. And it always worked. I can still distinctly remember that smell...




Today my father turns sixty-four years old. I find it difficult to wrap my head around that idea. I am well aware that both of my parents are getting older and not as invincible as I once thought they were. I am also reminded la…

Final Diagnosis

When the world says, "Give up,"        Hope whispers, "Try it one more time." ~ Author Unknown

"When it is dark enough, you can see the stars." ~ Ralph Waldo Emerson




It has been three years and eight months. That is forty-four months of doctor's visits, difficult procedures, emergency room visits, and hospital stays. One hundred and seventy-six weeks of tears, doubt, frustration, and anxiety. And approximately one thousand two hundred and thirty-two days of hope.




Hope for an answer. An answer that will give my illness a name. One that will give me credibility. One that will take the place of a doctor who says "I don't know" or "all your tests are negative." One that once and for all, will allow me to go through life without so many unanswered questions about my body.




I got my answer this past Thursday at an appointment with my rheumatologist. It wasn't really supposed to be a shocking answer to the big question of what d…

Thoughts on Friendship

"Life is partly what we make it, and partly what it is made by the friends we choose." ~ Tennessee Williams







I have spent way too much time over the past two days trying to write a very poetic essay about the things I have learned about the topic of friendship. And then I realized it sucked. I am guessing it was because I was trying too hard. This is my revised essay because well, it's better than not writing anything...





Ten years ago, my life revolved around my partner. Now my life revolves around my friends, family, AND my partner...




When it comes to friendship, always chose quality or quantity...




I remember the day I went to court to finalize my divorce, Nicole left her two young children with her mother and made the almost three hour round trip to meet me after court so I wouldn't be alone...



It's awesome to have friends that you are so close to that you can call then in the middle of the night about anything. But it's also nice to have acquaintance friend…

Love Knows No Age, Or Does it?

Age is an issue of mind over matter. If you don't mind, it doesn't matter." ~ Mark Twain



I somehow got myself involved in a conversation about age differences in relationships earlier this week. Well, not really involved because I felt, let's say, slightly uncomfortable. The scenario was that I was in a social situation and this couple (we will call them Mr. and Mrs. X to protect the innocent) was talking about their daughter's new boyfriend who is about seven or eight years younger than the daughter. Her mother expressed some concerns over that, which in turn, led to a larger brief discussion about age differences in couples. I was quite surprised to hear the father of the daughter voice his opinion about how a large age difference is not good in a relationship, especially when the couple is older. I am not sure what his rationale was and he didn't elaborate on that particular statement because his wife chimed in about how she agrees with him and then subs…