"Much of your pain is the bitter potion by which the physician within you heals your sick self." ~ Kahlil Gibran
I do try not to let it get the better of me. Try to be brave and not complain. I know that I don't always succeed in that. It must be hard for my loved ones to see me suffer. It must be hard for them to listen to the same complaints over and over again. It is easy to fall into the trap of "why me?" It is like everything else in life; you can see the glass as half full or half empty. I can sit around bemoaning why I have to suffer or I can sit and be grateful for all the wonderful things I get to experience when I am feeling well, and there are many.
It is difficult when sometimes every step feels like knives in my feet or like a chisel going into my joints. Frustration sets in easily when it is a gigantic effort to get down the street to lunch with my mom and the hour away from home leaves me exhausted and hurting. Or later in the day when I want to cook up an awesome gourmet meal AND do laundry AND play with the dog and realize that I have to pick and choose because any one of those activities will put me in more pain and fatigue...sometimes I don't get to choose any of them.
Sometimes I wonder if it is just an issue of mind over matter. There are so many people in the world who cope with pain on a daily basis, some much worse than what I have experienced. Besides acupuncture and medication, I use so many other techniques to deal with the pain. Distraction and relaxation techniques help a lot as does massage (sometimes) and heating pads. I make sure to laugh as much as possible in hopes that it will help heal me. I try to talk to myself and just tell myself it will be alright, it will pass. I get a lot of comfort from knowing I have been in this situation before and it DID get better. It is not necessarily forever. There will be relief, eventually. So I take one hour and even one minute at a time. I try to not let my entire day be about experiencing pain. I remember to keep in mind that I need to find something good and positive in each day because I will never get that day back again.
I remember to live.
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