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Beaten Down and Other Musings

Fall seven times, stand up eight. ~Japanese Proverb

I know "beaten down" seems like a depressing entry for a blog title. And I also know that it is difficult for some of the people in my life, either who read my blog or follow me on Facebook, to read an onslaught of negative thoughts about what is going on with my medical issues. Heck, it is hard for ME to be in my own head sometimes lately or even to read a lot of negative thoughts on Facebook pages such as the Sjogren's syndrome one that I follow. But I have promised myself to start being more honest in not only my writing, but also in my interactions with other people. So here we are. The thing is: when I write and am able to process my thoughts, my alter ego, the much stronger one also known as "the optimist" usually finds her way out. Bear with me.

Just as Chuck and I were starting to watch a movie at home last night, I leaned over to him and said "I just feel beaten down." I wasn't sure rea…

How Much Can One Spirit Take?

“Keep your face to the sun and you will never see the shadows.” ~ Helen Keller

"Placing one foot in front of the other, I've climbed to higher lengths. Reaching beyond my own limitations, to show my inner strength. No obstacle too hard for this warrior to overcome. I'm just a man on a mission, to prove my disability hasn't won." ~ Robert M. Hensel

This blog entry is intended to update friends, family, blog followers, and the general public about my recent health issues. I prefer to try and make my blog about different life experiences and topics rather than about my day to day medical sagas, but I received some excellent feedback last week about my blog entry entitled: From Medical Crisis to Inspiration. I was told that it was helpful to have a clear understanding of what is going on with me and I found it helpful because it fielded a lot of questions and concerns at a time when my energy and time is precious to me. Not that I don't want to talk about it in…

The Eye of the Tiger: Guest Blog by Chuck Myers

It was perhaps a month ago that Chris asked me if I’d be interested in being a “guest blogger” on her site. Having a huge ego, I of course agreed, as her followers have grown exponentially this year! (Of course, I only agreed if I could post it without any edits, as well!) I’ve been tossing around a few ideas in my head since that time, but the events of the past few weeks have led me to settle on this one…

Tigers…they’ve fascinated me ever since before I can remember. A stuffed vinyl tiger was one of my first toys, and I still have it today (Thanks Mom!). They’re the animal I want to see when I visit a zoo, and I have one on my right arm. It’s one of my dreams to be able to actually touch one some day; just to feel the aura of an animal that some cultures believe has magical or supernatural powers.

If you look up tigers as a zodiac symbol, you’ll find a huge amount of information, and while the Internet can provide you with nearly as much misinformation as accurate information, there …

From Medical Crisis To Inspiration

"When life gives you a hundred reasons to cry, show life that you have a thousand reasons to smile." ~ Author Unknown

I have so many other topics I would like to blog about rather than my current health issues but I have been blessed by the support of those closest to me wanting to understand exactly what is going on with my recent medical issues. There are people in my life, some new and some old, who have been following my health saga over the past six weeks or so and don't quite understand what is happening to me physically because it is either ridiculously complex or because they do not know my medical history. Also, there is only so much explaining I can do on Facebook; not that I mind but sometimes it is easier to just put it all together in one place. I don't expect that everyone wants to read it, but for those of you who do, here it is.

A little background which is important...

When I was twenty-four years old, I was diagnosed with Hodgkin's Lymphoma wh…

Another Morning

"When you arise in the morning, think of what a precious privilege it is to be alive-to breathe, to think, to enjoy, to love." ~ Marcus Aurelius

I wake up and it is another day. I stop to think of that fact and be grateful for it. That is important, very important. It is so easy to get lost and discouraged first thing when you wake up. I have slept maybe two hours. Maybe four. The nights can be long. But I am awake. And I can move. Maybe not always easily or without pain, but I can get myself out of bed. I lie there and think about the struggles ahead of me that day and then I stop to think about what I can offer that day to make it a better day, one with a purpose; for myself or for someone else.

I prioritize in my head what is necessary to do and what is optional. Most of it is optional, it has to be. If there is an appointment I have to be at, the day revolves around getting to that appointment. I get out of bed and take my medications. So many pills in their carefully la…

Simply Stated

"What lies behind us and what lies before us
Are tiny matters
Compared to what lies within us. " ~  Oliver Wendell Holmes

This is going to be a simple blog entry today.

Be strong.

Have faith.

Believe in true love.

It can conquer all.