"We all have an inner voice, our personal whisper from the universe. All we have to do is listen - feel and sense it with an open heart. Sometimes it whispers of intuition or precognition. Other times, it whispers an awareness, a remembrance from another plane. Dare to listen. Dare to hear with your heart.” ~ C.J. Heck
As I have spent all of today trying to take care of several issues, including packing, in an attempt to get ready for a mini vacation with Chuck, it dawned on me how just emotionally stressful the last few weeks have been for us and what a welcome relief this time away will be. You know how it is, we all do. You go through a period where it is one thing after another and you need a break. Usually for me it is more the need for a physical break which involves spending more time at home, not away from home. Right now though, the need to be away is overriding my physical needs. And truth is, I can be just as happy resting on a front porch overlooking the ocean or laying on the sand as I can laying on the couch. As Chuck pointed out when he collapsed into bed last night, for a variety of reasons, it has been the emotional toll that has been heavy on us most recently. Because well, life happens.
So as I was going through my day and thinking about how life has happened lately, I started thinking about intuition and how much that has come into play this past week. I know that may seem completely random but it is not. I have always had a difficult time following my intuition or listening to my gut as some may say. Maybe because I am afraid of being wrong or offending people. I think oftentimes it is because I tend to over analyze things to the extreme.
Haven't we all been there? Had a gut feeling about someone we've met or started to get to know and then found out later that the uncomfortable or "off" feeling we originally had was warranted? Or maybe we suspected something was wrong with our health and yet continued to let a doctor dismiss our ongoing complaints; despite feeling deep down that we knew something was very wrong with our body? It can be the deep down feeling that says this person is not the right partner for us (no, not Chuck!), or that this is the wrong job for us to take, or maybe that this is not the right way for us to celebrate a special occasion or holiday. It's that little feeling deep down in the pit of our stomach, well at least for me, that says "Hey listen to me!" But we don't. We let other people's opinions, emotions, and needs take over. We let our own fears, indecisions, and insecurities override what our gut is so desperately trying to tell us.
So as chance would have it, I have used my intuitive senses to make quite a few decisions lately; which is highly unusual for me. Decisions about when to step forward and when to step back. When to challenge and when to let something be. The reasons and situations have been varied and to be honest, none of them have been pleasant events. They have ranged from helping my partner deal with a family member's illness to supporting a family I love very much as they make the decision to euthanize their beloved dog; with a lot of other stuff in between.
An example of one situation happened to me on Saturday. Chuck and I were spending some time with some children who had recently lost their mother. We were waiting for our dinner to come at a very crowded restaurant and the five year old crawls up onto my lap, throws her arms around me and starts to cry as she tells me how sad she is that her mommy is dead (her words). The logical part of me thought maybe I should tell her I know this and try to change the subject. Not because I didn't want to make a scene, but because I didn't want to make her feel worse. But my gut told me to let her cry, let her talk about it, ask her a few questions about her mommy and just let it happen. And that was what we did. Now some children's shrink may disagree with that plan; I really don't know. But considering how well she continued to do with our outing after that, I know it was the right thing to do.
So be brave.
Follow your intuition.