Saturday, July 26, 2014
Today is Wednesday, my favorite weekday during the summer now. Why, you ask? Because it's the day I go to a local farm and pick up my crop share from a local Community Supported Agriculture (CSA). I had toyed around with the idea last year of getting involved with a CSA, but was a bit uncertain about the whole thing. Then this past winter, a friend of mine asked if my husband and I would like to split a share as a whole share was too much food for her two-person family. With it just being my husband and I at home, I figured it would be a good way to try it out.
There are different options for how you want to pay and you can either pay the whole amount up front or pay in installments. The total price of our share, for the two of us, was $795. This included an additional fruit share which cost us over $100 for the season. This seems like a lot of money, but for two households, for twenty-four weeks, it is not. The breakdown for each of us is $16 per week. I will tell you right now with the amount of food we get, it is a bargain. The farm we chose is organic and organic produce is a lot costlier. Last week's share for me and my husband would have cost us around $35 in the supermarket, instead of $16. And that doesn't even include what we got from pick-your-own. I don't know what other farms do, but our farm has a sliding scale system for payment so there is some flexibility for those who have income issues.
So each every Wednesday, we go to the farm to get our produce. There is a list of what is available for that week and as you go around the farm stand, there are labels for how much you can take of each item. For example, last week, we were allowed two zucchinis, 1/3 pound of fresh basil, etc. This way, there is enough of each item for all CSA members. Heather and I usually split every item in half, but not always. Sometimes you only get one of something that cannot be split and in that case, we compensate by the other person taking something more of another item or taking one of a different item. Sometimes there is something that one of us doesn't like and then it does not go to waste because the other person will take it. Heather gets all the cilantro for example because I HATE cilantro and won't cook with it so my husband doesn't get it either!
Because the produce is picked right off the farm, it is super fresh. I have had heads of lettuce, properly stored, last me over two weeks. I didn't realize how much freshness is lost on produce when you are buying from a supermarket that is not purchasing local, or when it is sitting in the supermarket for days and days. You can also freeze a lot of your produce for use during the colder months.
Another perk of a CSA is that you get to pick-your-own with items in season. I never thought I would enjoy this as much as I have. I do have a tough time in the sun in the summer, even with sunblock, so I tend to go early in the morning. I check the map, see what is available, how much I can pick, and get to work. There is something very therapeutic for me about going into the fields and picking the food you are going to eat for dinner that night, or sometime during the next few weeks. I have picked my own strawberries, green/yellow beans, and sugar snap peas. Sure, it's more work because you pick them, bring them home to wash and store them versus just picking a package off the shelf, but the quality and taste is so worth the effort.
Probably one of my favorite features if the unlimited supply of pick-your-own herbs. This was a totally new venture for me. I had no idea what to do with herbs, what foods certain ones are good with, etc. However, I had been experimenting more with bottled herbs since I started eating Paleo/Whole 30 and I figured that fresh herbs would make our meals all that much better. So I did some research and started drying herbs. I have enjoyed seeing how the different herbs actually grow in the fields and on any given day, you will see rows of herbs drying from our kitchen baker's rack. I have dried basil, rosemary, dill, thyme, sage, oregano, chive, savory, and parsley. I'm sure I'm forgetting some! Again, this takes a bit of effort, more so than picking your own vegetables, but the dishes I have made with these herbs have been outstanding; no comparison!
There have been quite a few benefits for my husband and I with using a CSA, besides the money saving aspect. I have made a commitment to not waste any of the food that we get from the CSA. Mostly because any unused food from the farm goes to feed the staff and homeless people and I would feel terrible if I wasted something that someone else could have used. This means that oftentimes, I force myself to try a new food and I cook with more vegetables than I normally would have prior to this season. As my family well knows, I grew up hating most vegetables and it has been a huge process to get past that and actually TRY them all. I have come to find that there are very few I absolutely won't eat (i.e. tomatoes). For the most part, the ones I don't eat, I shouldn't anyways because they can be bad for people with autoimmune issues (tomatoes and eggplant). I think my body kind of knows it shouldn't eat them
Anyways, being involved with the CSA has gotten me to try new things, in order not to waste the produce and to try and get different nutrients into my system. Before this summer, I rarely ate cabbage and never had zucchini, beets, garlic scapes (that is a MUST try!), etc. These are foods that are seriously healthy for you and help to prevent disease, including inflammation processes. Because we are eating more whole foods, the both of us are eating far fewer processed foods. It has only been about five weeks and I think that within time, my husband and I are both going to see a difference in how we feel and look. We are eating healthier meals, cooking more, eating out less, and I am enjoying the creativity that comes from creating new dishes.
If you are trying to eat healthier, I would encourage you to consider joining a CSA in the future. I am very happy that we decided to undergo this adventure and I honestly cannot ever envision a year where we will not do this. Thank you Red Fire Farm and Heather!
Friday, July 11, 2014
It has taken me longer to write and post this blog entry than I anticipated. I have been having a lot of trouble the past few weeks with joint pain, mostly in my hands and feet, and it has made time on the keyboard more difficult than I would like. My rheumatologist wants me back on prednisone. I think it is the result of an unusual amount of stress, coupled with my diet being less than stellar (I tend to be a terrible eater when I am upset/stressed, depending on the severity of the situation), and the hormone changes from having my Mirena removed less than two weeks ago. I am giving myself a few days to try and get myself straightened out before jumping on the prednisone bandwagon.
Anyways, I got a call this week from my genetic counselor with my BRCA test results and they were negative! Waiting for the results for almost three weeks was even more difficult than I had imagined. Someone asked me this week why I thought that this particular medical issue was more difficult than so many of the other challenges I have faced medically. I really had to think long and hard about that...
I was able to figure out that it freaked me out so much for a variety of reasons. To start with, someone close to me got a very bad medical diagnosis twenty-four hours before I was BRCA tested. Also, I am a cancer survivor and anything cancer related to me has a tendency to freak me out a bit. Lastly, I KNEW that if I was BRCA positive, I would be going for surgery to have my ovaries removed and most likely, a bilateral mastectomy as well. I would not have had the testing done if I had not already thought that through and made those tentative decisions. So the idea of two major surgeries, in addition to my often precarious health status, panicked me. Just the blood clotting disorder itself was going to be a major issue. All very valid reasons to be concerned.
I am over-the-moon thrilled about this negative result, even if it does still leave some unanswered questions. My mother, who has had ovarian and breast cancer, was never BRCA tested (long story). Now if she is BRCA negative, or even if we don't know her status, there is still a possibility that she is carrying a gene that contributed to her cancer that I was not tested for. The problem is, these non-BRCA genes are not as well understood and neither are the implications of them being positive. If my mother WAS BRCA positive, with me now being negative, then the story has ended. We would know that her cancer was caused my the BRCA gene and I no longer need to worry about this issue. Keep in mind that there still remains the possibility of her cancers NOT being genetically linked either.
Confusing as hell, isn't it?
You should hear me trying to explain this to my mother!
I had this discussion with my mom and we decided that, especially now that I am negative, she will consider gene testing. My genetic counselor suggested that she explain everything to her doctor, and consider other gene testing besides BRCA depending on whether it is covered by her insurance and if she wants to do it. Typically, the person with cancer undergoes genetic testing first. We did things a bit backwards, but it is what worked at the time for the both of us. There is a big difference in my mother getting tested now, knowing that there is no way she passed this BRCA gene down to me.
She is going to follow-up with her doctor in the fall when she has another appointment, but for me, I am done with all of this for now. The genetic counselor I met with does not feel that there is a strong possibility for any of these other genes; at least that is the impression that I got and I am not willing to shell out $4000 or so (my $2500 BRCA test was covered by the lab) to find out about these other genes when they are so poorly understood, and when I don't have all the information yet from my mother. I am still planning on following up with the oncologist because it has been pointed out to me that with my mom's history and with my chest radiation history, more should be done with breast surveillance, especially in regards to breast MRIs. I will also discuss with him the value of having ultrasounds and blood tests (CA-125) done for ovarian cancer.
I have learned a lot from this entire process. While I was waiting for my BRCA results, I got connected online with some women who are BRCA positive, and some women who have had the two surgeries. They were a wealth of information and I am in awe of the strength of the human spirit after what all these women are going through and will continue to go through.
For me, I am grateful that even though I am on a difficult medical journey every single day, that this piece will not be a part of that journey. My husband and I had not even made any plans for a few things we wanted to do this year and next, until we knew what the outcome was going to be. I now don't have to worry about not being able to work my new job, once school restarts in the fall. I can breathe a little easier and be more appreciative for this blessing that I have been given.
Wednesday, July 2, 2014
Sometimes a topic comes up that I am somewhat uncomfortable throwing out into the world wide web community, and this is one of them. However, I had to go in for a minor office procedure two days ago and I was extremely nervous about what to expect. A Google search of some other blogs gave me information that helped me quite a bit, and reminded me of the importance of blogging and why I write what I write.
On Monday, the very same day that the Supreme Court of the United States of America granted a for-profit company permission to withhold financial coverage for certain types of birth control from its female employees (including IUDs), I had my IUD removed.
That was a total coincidence.
Here's the thing though. This blog is not about that decision because honestly, I want this blog entry to be more helpful than that. We all have our opinions about the case and trust me, mine is strong. But this blog is about women and the choices they make. The choices that impact their lives, their partner's lives, and the children they may or may not have. So here is my story...
During my college years, I was put on birth control pills after I suffered through a ruptured ovarian cyst. It was not my first cyst and because of the rupture, I lost critical days of clinical experience during nursing school. Once I went on the pill, the cyst situation improved dramatically. I was not sexually active at the time I went on the pill, and never had been at that point. However once I was, I found the birth control pill to be a great piece of mind, as condoms are not exactly known to be foolproof.
I tried different types of birth control pills over the years as I had suffered from the side effects that many women deal with in the name of acting responsible. I stayed on it for years and years until I came off of it during my first marriage for a brief, and I mean VERY brief, attempt at becoming pregnant. I was back on it two months later. That's a story for another day.
In 2004, while in this marriage, I experienced a blood clot in my leg. I underwent testing and was found to have a genetic clotting disorder called Factor V Leiden. At the time I developed the blood clot, I was dealing with a medical issue and was spending a lot of time in bed. The hormones in the pill were thought to be an aggravating factor in the development of the blood clot. The trifecta of the Factor V Leiden, being immobile, and the hormones in the pill almost caused me a death sentence. I was banned from birth control pills for the rest of my life, as well as all hormonal forms of birth control such as DepoProvera, etc.
So condoms it was.
That was fun.
Years went on and in 2008, I left and subsequently divorced my husband. At this time I was also dealing with a raging autoimmune disorder that left me disabled and I felt strongly that I needed to further push the birth control issue as being single, relying on condoms if I were to have a new partner, and having this many health issues was a very bad combination. And frankly, irresponsible as well. The issue was made more complex by the fact that my fertility was in question anyways due to Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome, so who even knows if I needed birth control. But since I hadn't undergone testing fertility testing, I was playing it safe.
I spoke with my hematologist and gynecologist at length and I was presented with the option to have an IUD. I had two choices: a copper Paraguard IUD or a hormonal Mirena IUD. The suggestion was made that the Mirena might be better for me as the ParaGuard was known for causing heavier periods and I already battled that most of my life, but the Mirena can also cause ovarian cysts. I questioned the use of hormone (progestin) in the Mirena due to my clotting disorder. It was explained to me that because of the type of hormone and the location of the hormone in the uterus, rather than in my entire system, that it would not be an issue. The Mirena IUD had become the birth control method recommended to women with Factor V Leiden, as studies had shown that it did not cause an increased incidence of blood clots.
So in August 2009, I had the IUD placed. I was not thrilled about the idea of having something foreign put into my body, by my options were so limited. I was forewarned that insertion can be more difficult for women who have never been pregnant/given birth, but this was something I read online. I figured maybe some women exaggerated how bad the pain was. My (male) gynecologist at the time said it would just be like period cramps.
I no longer see that doctor.
It was bad.
I have never given birth, but I would have to say that the pain was probably comparable, just much shorter in duration. I have been through a lot of medical procedures, many of them unpleasant, and this ranks in the top three of most painful procedures. Then there was a lot of dizziness, I threw up while on the table, and my doctor told me I would be OK to drive home. I got twenty minutes into my drive and had to pull over because I thought I was going to pass out from the pain. I eventually made the last ten minutes of the drive home and loaded up on Percocet that I had left over from an ER visit months before.
The severe pain continued for two straight weeks and that was how long I was on Percocet. It took about two full months for me to get back to normal and then I was fine. I had called the doctor several times during this period because I was concerned that something was wrong with the IUD, but I was told that it just doesn't agree with my body and that it will get better, which it did. I don't want to scare women out of getting an IUD, but let me tell you, knowledge is power, Be prepared and don't take the word of a male physician on how it feels to have a T-shaped object inserted into your uterus when nothing else has ever been placed in your uterus before. Ask for a medication to take beforehand and have someone drive you. My experience may not be typical, but better safe than sorry.
Life after that with the IUD was OK for the most part. I would get paranoid that I couldn't find the strings which indicated if the IUD was in place. I did get a few cysts over the years, which I probably would have gotten anyways. My periods ceased. I never had to buy tampons. And when I entered my first post-divorce relationship, I was relieved to have it. At one point I was taking a very toxic autoimmune medication with a black box warning and was told that I could not risk, under any circumstances, getting pregnant. No problem. IUD in place.
As I mentioned, I was never really comfortable with the idea of having a device in me like that and this became more of an issue for me after a conversation with my acupuncturist when I started seeing him the first time around. The menstrual cycle is a big component in Chinese medicine, especially in relation to blood flow and energy. He never pushed me on the issue, because he is such a good practitioner, but he suggested I consider having it removed so that the work I was doing in acupuncture could be more effective for my autoimmune symptoms. Again, my options were limited, so in place it stayed.
Fast forward to 2013. I begin to have a lot of problems with my cycle.The Mirena has now been in place for almost four years. I originally thought it was stress related due to our wedding, but by the end of the year, the wedding was done and the cycles worsened. I spoke to my nurse practitioner, who I trust implicitly, and she told me since my Mirena was due to come out in August 2014, the symptoms were likely related to the fluctuations of hormones that the Mirena was producing.
I go from never having a period to having several a month. YES, SEVERAL A MONTH! Two words for that: raging bitch. Actually, that would be a bit extreme, but the hormone fluctuations were causing bad mood swings (mostly depression), bloating, cramping, you know, the usual. Plus, this made me concerned about the Mirena's efficacy. If the hormone levels in the Mirena were changing that much to cause these symptoms, was there enough progestin in that sucker to do what it is supposed to do? I am 43 years old and I have several medical issues that would likely make a pregnancy life-threatening for me, not to mention threatening to an unborn child.
So this has left my husband and I with lots to talk about. The plan was to get through my BRCA testing because if that ended up being positive, I knew I would have my ovaries removed and it would be a resolved issue. I have not received those results and birth control is still an open discussion. However we both agreed that for right here, right now, it is not physically OK for me to have this current IUD in place, especially since the more hormone fluctuations I have, the worse my autoimmune symptoms get.
For women, especially women with health complications like me, there are no easy answers. However I am fortunate enough to have a supportive husband and an excellent health care practitioner. Yesterday, after days of major fear and anxiety, I had the IUD removed. This was the Google topic I was referring to at the beginning of this post. I was petrified to have this thing taken out after my harrowing insertion experience. But it went OK. I thought to take some pain medication AND Motrin beforehand. It was painful coming out (they are taking something out of your uterus after all), but it was so quick that I barely had time to react. I did have cramping on the way home and Motrin later on in the evening, but by the next morning, I was out for a run.
The aftermath of the removal has been as expected. My body and hormones have been altered for the past five years so all those periods I didn't get the first four years? Yeah, they were getting saved up for now apparently. It sucks, but I am confident that in a few weeks or months, it will all even out. I'm sure my acupuncturist will be thrilled when I go in tomorrow and I am confident that she can do something to help get me through the next few weeks.
So with all this talk about women's rights, court decisions, and birth control, at the same time that I have gone through this process this week, it has made me think about the Mirena and if I think it is a good form of birth control. If you Google search "Mirena complications", you will be blown away by the lawsuits and issues that women have had with this form of contraception. You will see stories of women who love it. You will even read about how evangelical Christians think that using an IUD is abortion (for the record, based on the evidence, I do not). I will be honest, I LOVE the fact that this foreign piece of material is no longer in my body. I am even psyched that I have to go buy tampons for the first time in God knows how long, because it means that my body is doing what it is supposed to do. Even though I had the IUD placed AFTER I first experienced autoimmune symptoms, I am curious to see if anything with my health improves.
For a period of time, for me, the Mirena was the right choice. Besides never having sex, it was the only choice. I think it is easy for all of us to sit in judgment over each other and the choices we make, but we truly know little about the fine details and the decision making process that a woman must go through in regards to her health.
It is, after all, her body.